"I Wanted Him" by Lontalius

Lontalius (the nom de musique of Wellington, New Zealand singer-songwriter Eddie Johnston) sings "I Wanted Him," his newest single... which reminds me thematically a little bit of "I'm Not In Love" by 10cc, a story of a narrator trying to deny or resist an attraction.

Eddie is 19 years old with a promising career. Times have changed--years ago, we promised gay kids that "it gets better"...and it did. I feel pride.

It’s a lot to explain
But I won’t let that boy get through to me
I have chosen my way out
I’ll just dream of the way he moves again
But I won’t let that boy get through to me

I wanted him to take me home with him
I wanted him to take me home with him
I wanted him to take me home with him
I wanted him to take me home with him

Useless
I’m so useless
I don’t belong with you, anyway
So I’ll prove it to myself
That I don’t need no crush to hold me down
Or a boy to keep around
But the question in my head
And the message left unread is the same old song

I wanted him to take me home with him
I wanted him to take me home with him
I wanted him to take me home with him
I wanted him to take me home with him

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